Honestly, there are a million different reasons I can give...
I am too busy with work. After all, I HAVE 2 JOBS.
I have to save time for my friends.
My life is just too crazy right now.
All of these reasons are valid, but the only one that matters is this: im just not feeling it.
My YouTube channel has all of 42 subscribers over the course of 9 months of work. My online presence has always been silent in the corner, with slow and steady return. It's hard to keep investing in something you're not sure will ever be worth it, but I desperately don't want to quit. I'm not quitting this...I just needed a break. I don't know if I will be able to follow a schedule, spend time optimizing my content for SEO, caption all of my videos, edit for hours, and still be there for my family, friends and people I love, be present at both of my jobs, save for college all while jumping through all the hoops to get in, and stay sane. I can barely stay sane sitting alone in my room with all the time in the world.
So, in summary, "adulting" is hard, annoying, and full of pointless paperwork. I'm just starting to navigate this new world and I have yet to find the balance between fun, love, work, and my hobbies, but be assured that I'm trying.
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