Excuses

I have really good excuses.

I have so many really good reasons why I have been completely separated from my prior commitments, but for some reason I still feel absolutely disgusting for letting pieces of who I am fall away.

This is a normal part of life.

Priorities change
People change
Things always...change...
But for some reason I still can't accept that. I see myself changing before my eyes, but it still feels so unreal to me. I have so many excuses for the things I never do anymore, the friends I neglect, the hobbies and projects I haven't worked on in months, and the dreams I'm letting die, but none of them make me feel any better. I'm still just a quitter with a 70 hour work week who couldn't make it work on 3 hours of sleep. I need to accept that right now I can't be all I want to...I can't post here 5 days a week, make videos, talk to friends, be a whole person...I just have to stop for a while and just do what I have to to survive.

So, here's my excuse...I have to do what I have to do. See you next time I have 30 minutes to spare.